Hmm…dun really know who to believe or who I should believe. Perhaps I dun really want to know the truth cos it confuses and disappoints. I would like to maintain the perfect image that I have always had. Can I ? Somehow I feel like my bubble has been shattered and my hopes dashed. I am caughtl between ethics and believing in the ‘right’ thing and believing in what I want to believe it. Sounds confusing, dosen’t it? Perhaps this is reflective of my state of mind now. Double sigh…

I went for a BBQ last weekend to celebrate Jona’s anniversary and we had fun. The little fella warmed up after a little while and he was enjoying himself playing, wandering around and amusing people with his antics. He was so sweet and adorable…even if I do say so myself. It dawned on me that he is no longer a baby who needs lots of cuddles and basic caregiving. Lots of cuddles he still needs but now he also needs to be taught. Think the ’educating’ part has to come in already.He has to be taught what is right and good, what he cannot do etc etc. Hard to resist him esp when he smiles and cuddles up but guess at times got to be firm too. Really dun want him to be like one of those unruly kids we see around.