Iz got the all clear from the doctor yesterday and it was declared safe for us to be home. Of course I am glad to be back though I still get nagged at. Must have been nagged at at least 10 times already! But oh well…there is no place like home and our own bed. Though I forgot to bring my pillow home…woke up a few times last night looking for it only to remember that I din bring it home. Glad to be home though I am not sure how pleased Iz is. Said we brought the mess back!

Posted: December 28th, 2006 under Uncategorized.
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This is such a wet wet month. Apart from the times when I am home when it rains, I dun like it much. It makes getting around so inconvenient esp when picking/dropping M off in school. It makes me sleepy too..It’s been raining virtually the entire day though it is lightening somewhat now. I wonder if there will be a repeat of the floods like last week. Thomson Road was so badly hit that cars were partially submerged, plants were destroyed and even kois escaped. It was a good thing that the rain was heaviest that day, Matthew was home with MM.Kept him home as he was running a temperature and did not want to risk him getting wet.

This rain makes me sleepy too. Feel like I could do with a looooooooong looooooooong nap.

Posted: December 26th, 2006 under Weather, work.
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So quickly the long weekend/Christmas has come and gone. Christmas this year was pretty much the same like any other day except for the fact that we had turkey and all the other Christmasy fare. Much as I miss the festivities and all the warmth that comes with Christmas, I guess this is sort of a reminder of what Christmas really is. Not the fanfare, not the parties and all but really the birth of Jesus. Think sometimes amidst all the merry making we forget that.

2006 is almost gone. Thinking back, this has been both a good and bad year. Good cos we got the see how M grew through the months..his first babble..his first crawl…his first time tasting food. Was just reminded last night that he is a bb no longer…a couple more days and he will be 16 months! We also welcomed the new addition into the family, V, in Mar. And already she is 9 mths. We also saw other babies being borne along the year. So a nice year in terms of seeing new births and little bundles of joy.

Of course, along the year..Iz and I also learnt many parenting lessons and go through a couple of middle of the night visits to the doctor’s. But it all turned out well and I think we have done a decent job of bringing M up so far. That boy sure has a temper of his own and already we are beginning to see that…Not just his persistance but also his angry side. But well…that is another story all together.

Btw the both of us, I am thankful for yet another good year. We went through the usual good bits and not-so-nice bits. But thankfully, there were no major calamities. So on the couple-front, I think we are doing pretty well And the staying apart these 2 weeks have further made me realise how ‘together’ we are and  how I hate being apart. Made me miss Iz all so much. Guess it is really a case of absence making the heart grow fonder.

Extended family-wise, there was/is the usual family drama. Not that I am not stressed abt it but guess I have come to the realisation that I really cannot do anything to help solve it. Just have to be around as and when needed. What struck me though is how quiet the house will be when M and I go home. Now he provides all the laughter, zaps up all our energy looking after him. Guess he is also provides some joy and comfort to GG and MM. Otherwise, they would just be cooped up in their own rooms, uncaring and oblivious to the other.

Work-wise, it was good too cos I moved on and started at a new workplace. New place, new beginnings and timing was great cos it was just shortly after my maternity leave. So really had no loose ends to tie up in the previous place.

So all in all, I guess it has been a good year. And I thank God for it. Now I am just looking forward to a nice 2007.And yet another chapter that has to be filled in my book of life. Will it be a good one??

Posted: December 26th, 2006 under Uncategorized.
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I am counting down to Christmas though still not sure if Iz will be well enuff by then. The review at the doc is today so hope he gets the all clear then. And importanly…must also find out when M and I can go home. I really wanna go home. With the festivities and all, really hard to concentrate on work so instead the presents list have been running through in my head. I think I am pretty much done already. Have been using my lunchtimes to go shopping and though it is short, I reckon it has been thereputic. And guess it puts some activity in me too rather than just sitting down for lunch. So my routine for the past week has been pretty much..clock strikes 12, off I go to the shops, spend about 30 mins shopping and then make my way back. I reckon that lunchtime shopping like that is a discipline too cos it forces u to focus. Cannot afford to be distracted cos I only have 30 mins. So got to plan ahead what I want to buy or at the very least, which section I need to head too. See…even shopping can become a discipline.

Posted: December 21st, 2006 under Shopping, Uncategorized.
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I have always liked Christmas and always look forward to them. I was looking forward to this year’s cos it would be the first for M , first as in he would actually be able to socialise and enjoy himself. Have / had a lot of things lined up…lunch / dinner parties but then now everything is hanging in mid-air cos I dunno if Iz  will be well by then. Rightly he should cos by then it would be 10 days already but well…can’t tell for sure.

Hmm..always seem like the more u look forward to something, the more likely it is for plans to get deflated. And of course then greater the disappointment. But now I want nothing more than everyone to be healthy. I miss home…dun really like staying outside of home.I miss the air-con, i miss my bed, i miss Ch 55, I miss being able to laze around in front of the telly. And of course most of all, I miss Iz and Jeremiah. And am sure Iz misses M too…maybe even more than he misses me

Hmm…since Iz is homebound…guess I will not be getting my Christmas pressie this year. Sigh…and yet another disappointment. I love getting pressies cos I like seeing what kind of effort the giver has put in..

Please, please …let Iz get well soon and for M to stay healthy and be rid of all germs.

Posted: December 19th, 2006 under Christmas, Family, Uncategorized, health.
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Poor Iz is stricken with the pox so both me and M are staying over in my parents’ house. Was a bit apprehensive cos I din know what it would be like there for M. Din know if he would be used to it or not. Thankfully he was all right except for the initial fussing cos it was so hot. Thinking back, it is probably the first time he is sleeping without air con apart from the time he was born. So guess he is used to the coolness from the aircon already. The poor boy was drenched in sweat and all after trying to sleep. In the end, he slept on a mattress next to me. Am so glad he slept through the nite and did not have to wake up for milk. I too took a while to sleep cos it was  so so hot.

I miss home and I miss Iz. He must be feeling miserable with the pox and being alone at home, except for Jeremiah. So, I shall go visit him over the weekend bring some groceries back. Was thinking that I would cook and freeze the food so that he need not have to rely on instant food all the time. If not doubly poor thing. Well…am counting down already to the day he gets well!!!

Posted: December 15th, 2006 under Family, Uncategorized, health.
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Was quite peeved earlier on cos I had to go all the way to Jurong Library to collect a book for a lecturer. Peeved not because of the lecturer but because a request I made for the book to be brought here today got ignored. And of course what followed was a made hunt for the book cos the lecturer would be coming to collect it today.So ended up the only available and lending copy was in Jurong , so yours truly had to make a trip there. Not only was it a time waster, it cost me $25 in cab fares. Really think I should complain to the person’s boss for her inefficiency. Not being mean but then I think it is really irresponsible. I requested for 4 items and only 2 came…the first 2 never came. And cos I only managed to get the book today, it looks like I might need to make another trip down to Esplanade Library to get the DVD, whenever it gets return. See…all these hassle cos of one’s person’s irresponsibility..Sheesh…

Posted: December 13th, 2006 under Uncategorized, work.
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A nice sounding day isn’t it? 121206.. And it is J’s birthday today too. The weekend passed all too quickly and we had our very first Christmas dinner last Sat. Had it early ‘cos K is going away this Thurs. We had a nice time chatting and strangely enough watching TV. Dinner was a simple affair cos we ordered in Christmas fare from Swensens. It was yummy..the turkey was simple but nice. And so was the salad.Like I was telling Iz, it was so nice not to be flustered by all the preps..all we needed to do was to collect the stuff.No fuss , no mess in the kitchen! Even managed to get a table top Christmas tree frrom Thomson Plaza. Well…if we cannot have the real big tree then gotta make do with this table top one.

It was also our first time meeting K’s date…she is rather friendly but strangely enough now, I dun actually remember what she looks like. I remember her hair, her clothes and her heels but not her face. Weird huh? Funny what the mind registers and dosen’t register. I wonder how long this friend will stay in the scene

Glad to say that my no carb diet has paid off somewhat cos people notice my weight loss and of course my clothes are looser. It will be perfect if I could build in some exercise. Must go ask Iz to exercise together so that that would be some form of motivation as well. I cannot imagine being this lumpy piece of dough. Also…that will be some couple time / family time for us too. Now it is a matter of when and what.

Had mum, sis and family over for lunch on Sun…all the leftover turkey plus we made more salad and soup. We had a nice time though Niece 1 was a bit afraid of the dog. Anyway…guess it due to the exposure that one gets as a kid. I was just comparing Niece 1 and M and they are poles apart in the way they respond to the dog. M is rather nonchalant and not afraid of dog, dog can be licking his feet whilst he is standing or something. And he will also voluntarily feed dog with biscuits. Niece 1 is quite afraid of dog and he startles her. Thinks dog is too rough and though she is curious, she dosen’t dare go near him. Think this has also got to do with parental conditioning and the exposure the kids get. I mean I draw a line at letting the dog lick M’s face and ensure that after his hands are licked, he gets them washed esp cos he is so fond of sucking his thumb. But beyond that, I think bb/pet interaction is good. Different people , different parenting styles I suppose…

Posted: December 12th, 2006 under Uncategorized.
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Isn’t it weird how people say they dun want to stress you out with their problems but that inadvertantly stresses you out more?Trouble is brewing once again on the family front and of course I am stressed. On the one hand, I am used to it already but yet on the other..each time something happens, stress levels go up once again.Isn’t it funny how it is always the end of the year that something happens? Sometimes I keep thinking that this must be a jinxed period. Much as I like Christmas, it is always around this time that things somehow erupt. Let’s see…it has been 7 years already since the first major eruption. 7 long years…each time things pass and take a turn for the better…we say it is a miracle. But then a year later..it somehow reverts to being bad again. Can the miracle not come and just stay?It is tiresome and saddening to see things like that..the deceit..the bitterness..the different stories. Who should we believe? Much as I want to try to help…i feel like my hands are tied. I really dunno what I can do…except pray!I am vexed!!!

Posted: December 6th, 2006 under Uncategorized.
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I’ve been bad. I’ve been ignoring people I dun want to chat with on Messenger and then pretending its a bad connection when I get asked about it in person later. But because we are in the virtual world, I have perfect liberty to do that. I can choose who I want to talk to and who I want to ignore. At certain points of time, certain people irritate me so what so I do? I just ignore. It saves me giving the monosyllablic answers or having to engage in an endless chatter. Hehe…the convenience of hiding behind a virtual smokescreen.

 On a seperate note, M’s teacher called me earlier on and I always jump upon seeing her number because my first thought is always ‘what’s wrong with M, is he sick or something?”. Thankfully, this wasn’t the case earlier on, they just wanted to find out when we would be free for the Parents’ Teachers’ Conference. Imagine….he is only 15 months and already there is a PTC. This is his 2nd one so far and the first one was when he was 6 months or something like that. It was a good session of finding out how he is in school, his developments etc etc. Makes me feel so proud each time I hear a new thing he has learnt or done.Now the next milestone I would really like to see him achieve is to walk on his own without support. He can cruise very well and walk a couple of steps shakily on his own. But that is about it. I wonder…will he able to walk on his own by Christmas???

Posted: December 5th, 2006 under Uncategorized.
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